Everyone has a voice, in a matter of speaking. Some of us speak through our mouths, other with their eyes, and still others with writing. When I am angry, or in love, or horney, whatever it is that is the impetus for my writing, it happens. I choose to share it with you, although I warn you, tread lightly on the hallways of my private thoughts, you never know when it might profoundly affect your life.
All of these works are and have been written by L.C. Giffin unless otherwise noted. Please respect the intent of the writer to share.
January 31, 2002
It slid down so smoothly like water dancing over my body
his light touch and the feel of his breath on my back as he kissed lower
his tongue swirling over my skin my anticipation mounting
while it traced my tattoo he moved his hands up my back again
He took a hold of my shoulders and lifted me up to him
on my knees now feeling his chest to my back
his hands held my neck and turned me towards him
kisses my lips so sweetly I became lost in his body again
The music makes me delirious and his skin is hot to mine
he pulls my hair a little my back arches away from him
my hips pull closer to him and he whispers in my ear
and I say what he likes to hear... he has me now but maybe I have him
I reach behind me and feel his hips so warm and strong
I lift my arms up while he kisses my shoulders and neck
I caress his head while his bite marks me to remember the night
and I ask him... please......
Side of the Road
January 30, 2002
Before you
I walked at the side of the road
safe from the traffic safe from the flow
then you came along and tripped me
as I caught my footing I found myself
now in the middle of the road
There you stood behind me
whispering in my ear
I could have it all
if I just let myself believe
I felt your hands around my waist
urging me on to let myself go
The life passed by so quickly
both sides traffic flowed past us
and still you hung on
and it was there I came to live
the yellow lines of the highway clear
and my feelings for you dear love
Then I turn to see those pale blues
to embrace the love that found me
and as I turned I was left only with your smell
I looked to either side
almost tripped and fell
and there you were, safe at the side?
You smiled and waved
even yelled out to me hello......
but you would not come back
it seemed the traffic was too fast for you now
your fears for being in that moment clear
even though I already know you by heart
You shout something
you say I wouldn't understand
but I say I lived that before
it doesn't change a thing
and you think I am just saying that
but it is true
This life has been patched
with much happiness and pain
and in that at times a little sorrow comes to stay
which brought me to that side of the road
where I was so safe until you came
and now here I am in that eb and flow
There are no preparations to be made now
there is a path if you choose to see it
the traffic will go around you
if only you choose to run with it
Come sit with me in the middle of the road
with life on both sides living it fast
Be with me and feel that breeze again
of what we had what we could be
just you and me here smiling taking it in
I can't leave the middle to get you
you have to know I am here waiting
my hand outstretched to you, my love for you
After you
I am in the middle of the road breathing
in the life you have shown me I have
still believing what we had is what shall be
wanting only for you to take that first step
towards our love and what it can be
Staying in the Spotlight
January 30, 2002
I
feel the night you left like a off-beat heart nagging for something more
and I know that I can't change this, but maybe I can
that is what I have to believe in, the ability to change
you asked me once to let you not be too far gone
how do I know when that is?
You make me break in two one part longing one part apathy
makes a sorry tea party you must admit
the mad hatter isn't buying this round of drinks
he left the party a few weeks ago, but I am still here
waiting with my pretty dress owning my dreams like you wanted me to
I told you once you didn't claim me yet I was yours
and I ask myself this morning is that still true do you still have that
ticket
or have you thrown it to the dark passing river
let it flow far away so that you can be lost in your dimension
one that lets you lose time and time again
Or if maybe you keep that ticket like a movie-stub-memory
to be pulled out to remember the moment
so as to not lose sight of something once had
something that was new but became dirty by the past
but could be new again if we gave it that chance
I see you there in the river now sometimes you swim
sometimes you seem to sink and I can't see if you are just diving instead
I worry for if you dive too far how long those lungs will keep you alive
or will they be crushed under the depths of the waters so dark
and take your soul from your body so it swims forever away from me
There is this place we were, blissful, forgiving, understanding
a place that had no past, but only a future and a light you once spoke of
your broken wagon you feel holds you back I know, but wagons can be fixed
and dreams once bottled to be forgotten can be released if you only breathe
I trust in you, not blind but instead just knowing and I wonder if you know
I can hold onto the string let it crush me even though I go on
the actors took their places and the next play is already starting
each player preparing their lines, their love, their star for the poster
outside
maybe this time you are just the audience, wishing the stage neath your feet
or maybe you choose to leave the playhouse alone
The script isn't written dear love there is always stage for more
the programs haven't been printed and their is still a lead role open
the second-class understudies ready for their part but the director not
willing to give in
in the middle of the stage, spotlight on me.. I sing the song of you
yearning for you to enter that light with me....
Marks
January
20, 2002
The marks on my skin minimal
to the scars on my heart, both permanent now
as you dance toward me and away from me again
the music seems to fade from your ear shot
I walk away into the dark hall alone
I have been here before dancing to my own music
this time your music lingers in my mind
I can't seem to let it go quite yet, should I
I hear you hum again in my ear
maybe trying to scare me away
maybe trying to keep me near you still
but you don't know either I suspect
The light is still ahead and I see it clear
the warmth of your hand I still feel it
even when others are offering the dance
I yearn for you, long for the chance
Appetizer
January 26, 2002
This is a bunch of lines that came out of me while I was at the concert.. they are choppy and will be pulled into some form but I want to get them down. They don't mean anything about anyone.. they just wrote themselves while the band was playing.
You pull it straight out of me but I know I can take it back. You fondle my intentions like some sorry-ass dream of forever and something else.
And the music was heating me up and I was dancing my hands on my thighs and I don't want to bring you because you lost your beat so long ago. And I want something you can't give me. I want you only to destroy you, don't you know I just want your soul you fuckin sell out. I want to eat you up and spit you out because you are just an appetizer to me and again I ask the waiter for a real piece of meat.
And when he is fucking me you no longer live, you were some pink teddy-bear fantasy. Go back to your never-never land because you are just a fuckin appetizer and the real meat is on the way and I know it will be so good. I could fuck you one more time but how cheap would that be like ordering nachos for dinner.
You assume what you see is all you get well fuck you and your blue eyes too because it all rocks in me and little did you know it would be so fuckin good. If this is all you believe in then you were always blind and what did I see in you. Where is the party because I am gone on the next train.
Buying Souls
January 24, 2002
What else can I do to show you that I care
you know that I can take you far away from here
and bring you a life you only dreamed
and you can lift me up from where I crawl here in the dark
I close my eyes and hear you take me away
you thought you were taking from me, but no
we could share it all we fed it all but do you see
the dream is almost gone now do you still see it there
My breath is heavy while I stand there still
waiting for your voice to say what I wanna hear
but the laughing moon holds you in her grasp
so cold she is, only warmed by you the bright and giving sun
But you ripped it all away threw it to the drain
washed it down to the sewers below
and I stand on the edge it is slowly crumbling beneath my feet
and I am dying inside to know what you dream at night
The water is rising up on me and I can't beg you to stay
and I hate this part, the part where I fade away from you
I still hear your heartbeat and it isn't beating quite true
but the moon beckons on afraid of her shadows that grow
I slip and fall into the dark waters taken away
far away from where we once were, in love, I whisper
and under the water to a world I haven't known before
a world much colder but still a small light of hope
They store my soul in a jar on a shelf now
waiting for the right buyer to pursue no longer a discounted item
it is a rare one they say, one that had a true love
they shine the jar it's precious contents only longing to be free again
And that moon she tries to outshine that soul on the shelf
she tries real hard but she is only reflecting your love
her own soul a cold hard uninhabitable rock
and that blues guy plays on while my soul sleeps
And you keep walking past that shelf, something draws you near
but you can't quite put your finger on it
maybe it is the dreams, or that soft song in your head
but maybe one day, you'll remember to buy that soul
...and I will be yours again.
Back Seat
January 21, 2002
I have thought about it a thousand times since I saw you sitting in that car of yours. The music flowing out the windows while you slowly turned your head and smiled at me.
We had just met, I was so shy and you weren't quite sure either. But in that moment, seeing you there my mind took me so far beyond where we had gone or where we would go.
I saw us there.. a warm spring night, driving along some back road. The windows down and the sunroof open and some hardcore beat coming out over those speakers of yours... with each thump the bass would drive a vibration right down between my thighs and make me want you more every time I gave a side glance at you.
I didn't know where we were driving, we just felt like a drive. I was wearing a sundress with a sweater. I can see myself sitting there now strappy sandals and my purple painted toenails.
The warm spring wind comes through the window and lifts up the edge of my dress and flirts with exposing my thighs but I slide my hand down my thigh and keep it in place. You reach over and take my hand and the wind takes over again. I blush a little and you smile, your eyes squint up at the side and I know you are there with me right then and there. The rest of the world doesn't exist in that moment, just me and you.
I lift up your hand to my mouth and I begin to kiss the tips of your fingers, and like you always do you pull back a little, maybe conscious of your calluses, maybe afraid I will bite. Then I kiss your palm and then hold your hand to my face and I love the way that feels.
I smile and ask you to pull over by some field so that we can walk in the night air while the 1/2 moon shown down over your now moon silver car. We can hear the crickets as you pull over and turn off the car. I reach over and turn back the power so the radio still beats out everything but you and me.
Can you tell at that moment how much I want you? Can you read my mind and know where my thoughts are taking us? You let me drive your car more than once, would you let me drive you now?
The control now within my kiss. I tell you.. I have an idea. You give me a look, that puppy dog look you give when you know, but you want to be lead.
Our kisses make me wet and wanting more of you and I ask you if we can go into the back seat.
You sitting right in the middle of the seat, your feet planted on the floor and I slide back there and straddle you. I am sure you feel how wet I am through my panties but that doesn't matter while I bite into your neck and you pull me tight to you.
You have done it before, and would do it again but this time it felt so different when you slid my sweater off and my shoulders showed in the light of the moon. And you knew.. you reached up under the back of my hair and pulled it hard and my head pulled back and I felt your breath on my neck while you took in my scent. You knew that drove me wild. I pull my head up a little and then you pull it back again and bite my neck and then tend to the bite with light kisses and you whisper that word that melts me into you.... and I am yours...
The Rules to the Game - How to have an Affair or be a Mistress
January 20, 2002
There are distinct rules to the game and here they are:
1. You must be 100% honest will all emotions/plans/intentions as well as who and what you are with your mistress. If not then you risk her uncovering your game by accident. The power of your affair is in the teamwork between your mistress and yourself.
2. A mistress should always be intelligent enough to understand the game as long as she knows she is in the game.
3. Always treat your mistress better than your spouse, she deserves it for the secrecy she protects.
4. Realize that if you have a mistress that your relationship is not the real love you crave, otherwise you wouldn't have a mistress. (Exceptions to this rule are deathly ill spouses who can't perform spousal duties.)
5. Realize that there is no competition between your spouse and your mistress because your mistress is always better than your spouse otherwise you wouldn't have a mistress. Your spouse is hamburger your mistress is the finest cut of meat available. Your mistress is usually the woman you truly wanted in your life. It is your choice to take second best by staying with your spouse, you suffer the consequences.
6. Realize that it is time to leave your spouse when you find yourself frustrated with not getting to spend time with your mistress or the day you face the fact that your life is your own to live as well as you can, and if your spouse and you do not share the best life you think you could have, take that control to live. Don't mistake time invested and comfort as the "best".
7. Don't expect your mistress to not date, she does after all face the fact that you have a spouse that you go home to. No promises no expectations except for what you both agree on.
8. Plan at least one daylight rendezvous per month, if possible an overnight stay over, it adds to the affair.
9. Never tell your spouse any details to the affair. If your spouse discovers the affair, keep the details to a minimum. This covers any future legal issues.
10. Always have some form of communication open between you and your mistress that can be relied upon if there is a problem. This should be able to be used 24/7.
11. Mind, Body, and Soul, your mistress may feed one or two of these but can never give you all at one time unless you leave your spouse. It is a trade off. She has to protect herself this way.
12. If you find yourself not just loving your mistress but being in love with her, your life will never be the same and you have to decide to live in an unhappy or incomplete marriage or go seek what you desire.
13. Your mistress usually can give you so much more than your spouse, she is better equipped, that is why you risk your marriage to be with her.
14. If your mistress is just sex, it will always be better than sex with your spouse because if the mistress knows that sex is the goal, all inhibitions die. Note your mistress must know from rule one that this is the goal.
15. Your mistress is the person you can be yourself around there is no reason to impress or tell tall tales, as in rule #1 100% honesty is very important. If a mistress is aware she is a mistress then she thinks much like you do and can tell if you are lying and will be disappointed. She will often lose interest because you are treating her like your spouse by lying to her. She is impressed by you alone.
16. If you are a mistress, make sure you are a mistress.
17. Everyone must know their place. A mistress must accept that she is a mistress and as per the honesty rule from above will understand why she is the mistress, at least for the time being. She also knows that there is no promise her lover will ever leave his spouse.
18. A mistress must never give 100% of herself to the arrangement. She is not getting 100% and should know that if she gives 100% then she is losing herself.
19. If you ever leave your spouse and resume a relationship with your mistress, know that she cares for you regardless of your infidelity to your last relationship, she loves you for who you are. But know that she will also know if you start to be disloyal to her.
20. There are several types of mistresses, the ones who seek power and money, the ones who just seek sex, the ones who are themselves in an unfulfilling marriage, then there are the special ones.. the ones who believe in you more than your spouse does and craves your spirit as well as feeds your spirit. If given the chance both of you would bloom in a real relationship. Because she knows of your darker side (obviously b/c you are having an affair with her) she can and will be the person you always dreamed of, and she believes you are the same, otherwise she wouldn't risk the part-time relationship.
21. If you were single and met your spouse (who would not be your spouse yet) and your mistress (who would not be your mistress yet) as 2 single women, you would most likely choose your mistress, as mentioned above she is more of what you want/need, she is the one you might have waited for if you had not met your spouse first.
So those are the rules.. feel free to email me if you have any comments or additions...
The Flowered Kite
January 19, 2002 Written October 18, 2001
I ask myself if my eyes were closed when those little bits of my soul were stolen I saw the little spots of blood my heartstrings were to be broken
And then there came that day when my eyes no longer sealed a temperate wind blowing strong o're the fragrant lilac field
Then I knew that things came to change a lost moment again found a thought taken during midnight kept in a box tightly bound
It came to pass as it often does a dream influenced by real life reality tasting the dream no longer holding the knife
A barren heart now filled reflecting the times to come hopeful effervescence a simple truth to not be out done
The night calls quietly still your eyes to mine the breath begins no longer are we suffocating no longer suffering our sins
As the day passes over a bright blue filling light singular in its nature we are both holding the flowered kite
It flies above so high and so proud no longer hanging from a store shelf having a life of it's own so much greater than just itself
And I look to my side my eyes now open as far as they can be and its your breathtaking smile that opens my heart doors and greets me
So if the wind should slow and almost come to fail I know that it will be the truth of our hearts that keeps that kite assail
What it is like
January 16, 2002
What was in my heart from the start was so much more
I knew you were impossible, you were too perfect
how could someone like me be so lucky to have you
someone so not perfect as me, someone so not perfect
You made me feel perfect at times even when I knew I wasn't
you made me feel like this spirit inside of me was all you needed
now I wonder if that was a lie or if it was true
But you just didn't know how to make it all come alive
I think about you, the smiles you had and the way your hand felt in mine
How could something that felt so electric to me be nothing to you
I don't want to believe it was nothing I want it to be more
but time will tell the true ending of this tale
I wanted to be with you and share parts of me that were asleep for so long
I wanted to awaken in you what had also been asleep
and feel the power in our two souls really feeling each other
and hope that we had the chance to see it all through
I know the truth, more than you know the truth
and still I believe in that love and spirit we shared
the dreams, they keep taking us there again and again
I just wish you saw that and wanted that too, but you found another way
So I pile my thoughts of you into my words and let them fly
the darkness keeps coming but the more I push the farther it goes away
and I look at the time now lost between us but we won't know
until time has slowed us down and one of us has wondered for the other
My love like a secret compartment in a hope chest
always there, with it's secret for only those who know to open it up
you still have the key, you always will although I wonder if you will lose it
or keep it close to you to remember how simple, our love
A love that pulled and inspired that questioned and responded
something so simple as a passing touch or so complex as making love
like two virgins we came together in so many ways and my spirit hummed
life is what she be, cold sometimes, warm others but we all know
What will be true out of this may never be seen
we will always be able to find each other if the world is forgiving
then we will know what we truly were to one another
and we can dance in those memories of love living our forevers
The trouble with you
January 15, 2002
The trouble with you is that you aren't ready for me yet
I can growl and bite but that won't make you see
I can see the glisten of my sweet juice on your lips
your soul is not all here but I can fuck you anyway
I like it when you take me from behind let you think you know
when you haven't quite caught up with me yet
I wish I wasn't so far ahead so I could be with you in this moment
but damn it, you made me not even fucking care anymore
I see it laying there like a tossed away rubber
I point and show you, you ruined what we had, now its deflated and ugly
you pulled it off so fast you didn't even let yourself feel the warm
did you really come when we fucked or was that just me taking it all in
And now you think I am angry, you see a darker side
you gotta be wondering what else you missed or what I hide
you don't even know what I could open in you
but that is you waking your day fucking another and closing you
Do you know what you are losing do you have any idea the cost
of what you are throwing away, for the time you lost
you know your chance one more to go but you wont spend it now
you would rather waste our fucking time on a show
And this damn thing ain't suppose to rhyme
I'm not suppose to give you my words
but I know they soothe you when you think at night
while you are laying there after fucking her right
But see I come self fulfilled the sex meant nothing to me
it was all just a time filler between the true stuff we be
and I am hiding away this tear and saving up my little dime
until we both can be fuckin real and know our love at the same time
Asking This Once
January 14, 2002
Rocking my body towards yours again
and I never knew this dance before but it feels so good
You don't claim me yet I am yours
you pull me on top of you and I see your world unfold
In your eyes I can't see this broken fate
but you explain that it is ok and love is in this place again
Can we play that song that brought us there
can you handle one more groove while my soul takes you in
Can we play that song that brought us there
can you taste me one more time before morning takes you
Away.....
We come closer than we had before
and I taste your kisses a guardian to my lonely sleep
Your hands touching my side
the way you love to touch that spot below my breasts
So different is your love
I can't take it and my body shivers while I come with you
Can we play that song that brought us there
can you handle one more groove while my soul takes you in
Can we play that song that brought us there
can you taste me one more time before morning takes you
Away.....
One more time to make it all count
like a dream card pulled for a fantasy lived well
The clock drives you away
your exit music plays sad and sexy but fades to soft guitar
An alone guitar and a cold heart
they don't dance anymore and I pull up those covers alone again
And you may know what you do
or be lost within yourself
But I am only asking this once...
Can we play that song that brought us there
can you handle one more groove while my soul takes you in
Can we play that song that brought us there
can you taste me one more time before morning takes you
Away.....
Pageant
January 13, 2002
Slam the loneness home don't let me be alone
The wind growls your name and I am numb with pain
Don't let anybody know the secrets we've in toe
Those are ours to keep I'm still taking that leap
The crown of wire your love's retire
I stumbled to the stage in second place parade
The talent was mine but she's had more time
And now I dance aside you fill with pride
Can hate fill and carry me still
No truth be known I can't throw that stone
I'm better than that they say and pat
My back missing you and your words what they do
My heart to still call but the truth to fall
You are where you are while I cry in my car
The judges remind her duties are lined
To bring you your life no longer her strife
The car pulls away and in it you'll stay
She waves to the crowd her eyes so proud
Her crown a fake but now it is her fate
To believe in your being and see what you are seeing
Can she hold the position she's told
Five years on the thrown maybe never outdone
This second-place princess won't be so careless
My love is true always and true passion stays
The Cadillac now gone was I just a pawn
Will the dust bring you back when your heart does lack
In the passion we shared the way that I cared
Time will herald the truth while I sit in the diner booth
Waiting with coffee for you...
The Reach Out
January 4, 2002
She reaches out into the
midnight
feels nothing but the cold air
she hears the whispered promises
but doesn't feel them real
The lighted street sign
ahead
trash is the way she feels
but her heart insists no
but sometimes doubt silences
Hung on the rack
with all the other clearance items
her second best label showing
the discount tag on her chest
Tries to pull herself
down
the hanger tears off her wings
and now she is stuck on earth
with no one else around
The TV blaring life
she doesn't own the clue
she just created it to dance
on the line at the edge of the time
What she should believe
apathy her best friend growing close
pouring her tea and listening
until she falls asleep again
Jolted awake by
questions
no answers to know or feel
the frustration taking shape
pulling over her a blanket of pain
Crashed Into I Don't Know..
December 31, 2001
I crashed into
something, I don't know
The cuts run deep but the sutures are strong
I went running through the woods
Not looking to where I go
And there it was, like a torn nightmare
Controlled by the dreamer
Doubt kills in vanity you should know
The life you once knew so easily returned
When you backpedaled did you hit the spikes
Did they rip at you like they did before?
Or did you find them now to be dull
So you can so easily change your mind
Maybe it is the plastic life you love dear Ken
Run back to her Barbie-doll world
With matching cars, and never an argument
Your lips painted in a smile, your hair to never move
If you should change, her world wont match
And she will find another one to adorn her life perfect
And here I am, nails, choppy, hair, mangled, mind, thinking
Cold but wanting heat but unable to control this dream
Or should it be a nightmare cast upon the night
The music is quiet your I dont know loud
Dont you know that all fades when you shut up
And just listen to your song
Dark Deep Blues
December 19, 2001
Man of
the darkness
bring your angels dear
crossing all the boundaries
I hope to see them here
The claws came fast and hard
bringing on the scars
wretched weeks of healing
closing windows to the stars
Nipples fondled through the gown
while held on tight to the bar
memories of the night
the best we've seen by far
Drenched and hear the scream
not long too hard to bring
taken for dead in the grave
ripped the heart from its strings
And the train passes over the grave
the coffin rattles two asleep
bound for the great nothing
forever more brown dirt deep.
10/29/01
Sunday
be it divine with soft subtle kisses he greeted the night and stole away my
heart....
His
breath still found, the skin of my neck quivering fearing not that the world may
disagree
This man, his mind pulling me in, knowing only that his life must be his own, speeds my pulse and frees my soul
I know his taste now and how his arms feel when they wrap around me
strengthening all the dreams I once held
In his touch he absorbs me I feel myself slipping wanting to be with him..
feeling him consume me
And... he knows
10/25/01
Singular floating leaf
along the river flow
purple tinged with red
like a fire burst and glow
My soul weary floating here
the light from above guiding
I'm washed with the sun
darkness brings loneliness sliding
My hand dipped in the cool fall water
my reflection wavy and cold
the days used to be long
now the nights are old
There across the way
I see you dip to drink from the spring
I know you from a lifetime before
I know you won't want anything
But to love me for the dream
that fate left to breathe
all inhibitions gone
it is the trust in you I'll leave
10-21-01
The petals touching
my lips
a slight hint of the past
not tainting only humanizing
your tender kiss
Making you real
as I still did not believe
a brush of excitement growing
not easy nor wanted to resist
Home alone now needing
needing to hear something from you
wanting to be more
but knowing the moon will tell us the time
Some of your songs
fill me for now, Brandy knows the plan
I am filled with content
and the joy I have been yearning for
The night bringing dreamy thoughts
soulful and wanting the reality clear
what was once afraid to want
now desires more of your kisses
10-17-01
To understand the petal
of the softest rose
To understand the touch of ones hand
and how my love for you grows
Looking into those eyes of yours
makes me lose where I've been
and wanting to get close to you
I don't even know where to begin
It amazes me how your lips move
when you speak your mind
and how much I want to touch you
not knowing what I'll find
I take it step by step
even though it is new to me
the softness, the intenseness
longing to be free.
Leslie's First Attempt To Write A Song
10-12-01
Chorus:
I need to know if you're with me
I need to know if you dare
cause if I'm about to start fallin
I am takin you there....
I don't care if you aren't mine
I don't care what they say
because baby your are so right to me
I don't care what I have to pay
And some people say
that it just ain't right
but I'm not going to start listenin
without a good fight
Chorus:
I need to know if you're with me
I need to know if you dare
cause if I'm about to start fallin
I am takin you there....
There was once a time
not so long ago
when I dreamed that you could be
and now I see that it's so
So don't tell me when it won't work
don't tell me when to leave
because I don't know those words
their foreign to me
Chorus:
I need to know if you're with me
I need to know if you dare
cause if I'm about to start fallin
I am takin you there....
You
step into the light
A
shadow whispering for years
Never
wanting to stop and wonder
Or
be broken by tears
The
softness of your hands
Reaching
through the dark
Wanting
to know you more
My
skin to hold your mark
Unknowns
are the apparent
The
tingles filling my every pore
Waiting
with anticipation
For
that night you walk through my door
I
know the world brings you pain
It
drains the life from you
It
takes your dreams and cages them
Sometimes
crushing things you do
But
in the darkness where I dream
I
am thinking of you still
You
aren’t alone in this big world
Because
it’s my heart you fill
With
thoughts of caring tenderness
A
distance and time away
A
fantasy wanting to be real
Thought
of everyday
Just
know that no matter what
A
caring friend I will be
Even
when life screws you up
You’ll have love from me
Friendship
and Love a story without an end..
We all know these times do come
when someone is suddenly gone
the story is left undone..
We feel that we are lost
we feel we lost the chance
we feel the worst has come to pass
But we all know the truth
that life is what it is
a fine little dance in time
Some of us have a wilder dance
some of us are calm
but most of us just enjoy the ride
We have all lost someone important to us,
some more recent then others,
but know that they are here with us
They may dance silently while we think of them
but they are in our hearts, our minds
their time will never end
So this holiday season,
stop and think of those we lost
remember their smile and their ways
And know that they are smiling now
watching you in your day.
L.C.Giffin
10.09.01
Do you own your dreams
or is it the barbed hook
that rips into your flesh
and pulls you deep into to the book
Like a scavenger you cling
to each puffy white cloud
the dancing tootsie pops
are your screams out loud
You thank someone
your wound a jagged mess
the blood tastes salty on your lips
you always expected less
And like a rabbit
you begin to bite through
gnawing at the bony meat
of what was once so true
Once you are free
you think to yourself
this gash will heal
another scar on your soul's shelf
This too will pass
as they often say
and while your heart is healed
it is your essence that pays
The beast is looking the other way
while you clamored for the train
to a place of sovereignty
no longer is it plain
Your hands are scarred
cheeks stained with tears
that the feeling is so great
liberating your fears
When they write the story of you
they will truly understand
it was a sacrifice to normalcy
that made this unplanned
But in that perilous
journey we make
it is your soul's desire
that you finally take.
10.08.01
the music flows
she feels it first
like a low warm feeling
deep down inside her soul
she closes her eyes
her heart slows
she lets it fill her whole body
while it slides through her being
she breathes with the beat
it caresses her fingertips
it brushes over her hair
and fondles her body like an unseen lover
her chest rises slowly
then quicker the music is taking over
her mind is filled with the sounds
her fingers now drawing circles
the thunder rumbles on outside
she gasps as the growl fills her even more
her body is tingling
tilting her head back the music takes over
as the song nears an end
her body now charged
she feels her breath slow its pace
and the music settles her soul.
10.07.01
I have never taken this path before
are you sure you know the way?
My feet hurt and I have grown tired
but do you even care to play
I brought you the heart
sad in it's little state already
but you promised to protect it
I see it lays at your feet, heartbeat steady
I took it that the passion wouldn't lie
that it would whisper truth in the night
until I found the blood by my side
where you cut me with no fight
Sorry, is all that you could mutter
while the funeral of our love proceeded
and my used soul lay discarded
and then, the anger swelled unaided
A dark voice came from the vacant place
that used to hold our love
that dark voice full of hate
never to be out done
She screamed for her pain
and wanted you to pay
she never did that before
the moon gave her permission this day
And now you think you know the truth
you assumed it would all be true
just a matter of time you thought
until she is done with you
But what you failed to see
is that her love was true
the kind that lasts forever
until the skies were no longer blue
To the time that death would take
the ever present walk
and take you from her sleeping grip
then to your spirit she'd talk
But now that you have hurt her so
she doesn't know what to do
because even though the pain is so great
she is still in love with you...
L.C. Giffin - October 6, 2001
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10.08.01
I take it you are waiting for the touch
the kind you won't forget too soon
the kind that draws you in
and takes you as it's crew
The soft way that her hair feels
while it dances on your thighs
and her mouth encircles your head
and all inhibition dies
Whether she spits
or takes it all and swallows
you know that it is so damn good
it is she your hunger follows
She may know your story
or not even care
but it blows your fuckin mind to know
that she took you on your dare
And when you feel to come
she takes a big bad lick
and takes you deep inside
and suckles on your prick.
And that juice just bursts
and feels it on her tongue
its salty little tingle
while your cock shot like a gun
Then she takes up her curvy body
and slides her tongue up your thigh
she finds her lost way
and leaves you with a sigh.
L.C. Giffin 10-6-01
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Invitation
I am inviting you to be my love
to take this journey
instructed from above
To learn to keep within these confines
to hope to sleep to believe
in its design
you are so special in your way
to make me feel love
like the morning feels the day
I want for you a love so true
a time to spend
and ocean blue
Don't ever doubt my heart's little words
lead by emotion
sometimes flies like birds
But know that when the night makes its call
it is with in your arms
I wish to fall
L.C. Giffin 8-29-01